I shared the news with Meggie about the upcoming project that means the drought is over.  She was also glad to see you looking so well, and then she said something that struck such a nerve in me, hit the nail so much on the head, and it wasn’t from a jealousy thing at all and I realize it’s what bothers me the most as well.  She said she hates to see pictures of you with you know who because it always looks like you know who just drains all the life out of you.  And it kind of put me in a wild tailspin of sadness, and compassion and I so regretted so many years ago when I told you out of a sense of martyrdom, “Rester.”